Fashion: Day 4

This was a great day. I love that most of it was spent doing things that I enjoy with nothing to get in the way. I embroidered and went for a walk again. Yey Iced Coffee! I was very fortunate to get a copy of Fortunately The Milk by Neil Gaiman. I pick up a lot of used books in town but there are some popular books that are not normally found. Neil Gaiman is one of these. It is also one of those times where I got to have a conversation about things that are not normally talked about. It went from America being without common sense to fear of socialism because of Communism in Russia and how the history is not talked about. Then there was the contrast between Finland and North Korean education. Politics came up which lead to talk on Net Neutrality and Global Warming. I can't talk about the later without mentioning how screwed we are with the oceans. Finally I got to talk about the awesomeness of the Tardigrade.

Tis a good day, Tis a very good day.

Hard Times

Last semester I came back to Colorado to start on the second half of my degree. I want nothing more then to be an art teacher. Of all the self doubts I have and all the insecurities that is the one thing that I truly believe in. I would be a great teacher. I've always been interested in learning information and passing it on. I know this is the right thing for me. This school has made me happy, really really happy. I loved every one of my classes and the people I meet shocked me with how good they where. I spent all my time trying to do the best I could and get he most out of my school. I participated in ways I never have in school before. I pushed myself hard to excel at all the art I did.

I felt like I was getting somewhere.

I'm probably not going back. My mom works the hardest out of everyone I know. She tried so, so hard to be able to pay for my school. It isn't working and her health isn't good. I've been working to find a job for the last month and it hasn't come through. I've looked for scholoarships but I don't qualify for the ones at my school till I get into my program. I need just one more class. Just one more class and I could get some help but I have no means to get that class done.

I got my fafsa information today....They are not going to help. I really hate fafsa. They don't ask what debt you have. They don't ask if you have had health issues that have set you back. They don't care if your father doesn't intend to help.

I don't know what I am going to do. I haven't a clue how to get out of this situation. How do I get people to notice me? To help?

I know I'm good at art but what do I do to benefit from that?

I feel really helpless right now.