Skull Filet

So this is what I had typed up on the 29th to be posted:

So yesterday when I started to go do my math at 6pm I had a freakish urge to go study History.

Good freaken thing too because I had a test today and I didn't look at the review sheets till just then.

7 front to back pages of memorization in that short of time fizzled out my nerves.

I also thought I lost my Brit lit book but turns out it was hiding...under my history book that I don't remember touching since I got it.

Weird.

For the 30th: I found my text book and I worked on labs.

Today: Happy Halloween everyone.

 

Ghost Deer

My camera wasn't charged yesterday. Yack! Anyway this one I was all heck no to finishing. I wanted to use the wire my dad took the time to strip out of electrical cord but I hated attaching it. So no legs for you deer.

Beyond that I finally called my mom and found out she is doing a lot of planning to get me back living with her and it just made me say wha.....I don't know I do want to go back and I'm glad she wants to be so involved but I feel like I'm just shuffling.

I have been trying to save every bit I can but I think I'm going to have to break my 20's. I've been putting as much as I can off but I have holes in my socks, out of face wash, and I broke my headphones today. Apparently my pants are that tight that bending over is fatal. Good news is we had a spare pair at home. Another bit not to be happy about is the fact that my shoes that are about 2-3 months old already have holes worn into them. At least these won't need to be replaced, I do have other shoes, for now. I also need to get transparencies for school and something of good quality to draw on them with for school.

Oh well.

Cable Crochet

I've actually been doing a lot over the last few days. This includes studying and for once doing my math well before it is due. I can't say I've finished anything though. I got well into a project but it is one I plan to show much latter on. I also have another that is almost done but the wire was annoying me. I also took some time to just doodle, which I don't do nearly often enough. I feel very refreshed.

In between all that I've been doing I made up my mind to start going through some of the tabs I've had open for weeks that I've been saving for some down time. One of these included cable crochet, something I've been meaning to teach myself. It wasn't easy but I did it.

As for Halloween related things I have ideas they just take a good bit of time. I'll need to remember to bring my sketch book with me and try and see if someone has decorations out in town. I have a few places in mind.

Bat Filet

I know it has been a wile, and I was doing so well too, but I haven't had a chance to really finish much. I have projects going and they are coming along well despite the lack of updating. My school work is still in a rough patch but I feel like I can turn it around soon. Math is still giving me a fit and I couldn't turn around my Anatomy work for the practical. So many blanks on the paper and in my mind. I plan on watching a lot of A and P videos as well as math ones this weekend. I will also need to start an essay and prepare for a midterm for Wednesday. Not much is actually due though, which I'm thankful for.

I ran out of crochet thread half way through. I hope the point still looks right.

Red and White Lolly Pop

You know whats a good idea? Dusting. I should get on that. I can't say my horribly messing but I will say I'm close to it. I did get a large area of my floor cleared off by returning the Halloween costumes to my Aunt. I'm getting there.

I'm also getting there with school....maybe....kinda...At any rate my essay was turned in and almost up to standard.

Cauldron Filet

I still feel stifled by the essay I have to do. I can write a whole page in reply to a line or two but ask me to combine a piece of literature and a painting and I go wha?

Other then that not much has been on my mind. Just doing the typical internet thing, looking up gifs, taking a trip to tumblr, and looking up some videos. Most of the videos have been about resin which I would love to get my hands on. When I started looking into it a landslide of ideas happened. As if my obsession with filet wasn't bad enough. Filet was also apart of those new ideas thanks to tumblr.

Owl Filet Crochet

Oh wow didn't realize it is 2am already. I probably wouldn't have even though of this if I didn't take a minute to think about anything I still needed to do....as in everything.

This little guy was meant to be a bunny but I feel calling it an owl is more fitting. I used crochet thread for this one and it was worth the extra time. Maybe even the hand cramps. I don't think I would mind framing this one.

 There where a few problems with this one. For instance there where a few extra squares I was counting. I tried to compensate accordingly and I feel they are not too noticeable.

Alternate Colored CandyCorn

I skipped posting yesterday so I could have a nice long sleep and be ready to hop up today with work in mind. It worked.....to a point. I didn't mind carrying my portfolio, that is as high as my thigh, for a half an hour to get to where I needed to draw. Problem after that was sitting under the sun started to get to me so when my ipod ran out of juice I packed it up. Then when I sat down to do my essay, with a whole first draft in mind, I ended up struggling to the point I didn't get past the intro. It is started and that is what matters most I think. Also lucky enough to finish my picture enough that I don't need to go back that way.

Witch Cat

So wile I was coming home today I saw a deer that had been hit by a car and thought it look liked crushed watermelon pieces. Ether that is the weirdness that all "artists" have or my thoughts are decomposing as fast as my grades.

Ether way after failing a test I said I'm going to give myself a breather. I'm going to watch Scishow and make things. As it stands right now my grades are suffering in the short term but over all are still relatively high and I have three projects almost half way done. Sadly I didn't get any crochet pieces finished but I did take 10 minutes to draw a witch cat I have in my closet. Why is the poor thing in my closet you ask? Its head is sloshing off and needs to be stitched back on.

I'm wondering when I became the type of person who debates how a bartering system can help the economy and how the government comes into play. I'll spare you the conversation even if I find it interesting. It did get me thinking about if I could get people to give me books for doodles. It would make my day. Never mind the fact I have probably close to 70 to read already. Can't you see my complaints I'm busy! -jabs the scolding thoughts away-

Boo Filet

So I did end up getting graph paper in between my first two classes, even cut it short for getting there on time, and I didn't think putting little x's in blocks to make pictures would be so wonderful. Not even kidding. I can see myself going crazy doing this. I had 4 done by the time I got out of Lit class. Also figures that teacher, the one that wasn't killing me, would announce, on a very important weekend, that an essay would be due this Sunday. My head....I can't even.

Even though I feel stressed, and know I'm pretty much going to fail my test tomorrow, even though I got a C on my last history test, I have this to cheer me up: I found Racso and the Rats of NIMH for 50 cents. SCORE.

.....Well that joy lasted for all of 30 seconds. -back to stress and studies-

Wait didn't I say I wasn't going to whine?

Witch Hat

Today was filled with struggles of trying to sit down, shut up, and study. I can't concentrate for very long on subjects and absorb them. With back to back tests I've been put into a position where I expect to fail this Anatomy test. I had spent three hours on the homework and still failed it. I'm just having so much trouble taking it all in. Worse yet I can't seem to open the slide shows I should be studying from. Damn.

On another note I know I'm trying to save up money to attempt to join that gallery but I'm still tempted to get a pack of graphing paper to do Filet crochet easily. I just feel if I do I may also pick up some black yarn to use with it and that would just be a mess.

As to blog posts I have about one more day of projects I can post before I'm going to be hurting for them. With studying I just can't do it. I've been lucky so far with having had projects done well in advance. Maybe I can draw a store front or two if I can find them with Halloween decorations up. That shouldn't take too long.

It was too late when I realized trying to add the typical stripe at the brim wouldn't go to well in order to fix it. I also put a bit too many blocks at the bottom in my first row. Oh well I hope you can still see what I was going for.

Boo! Ghost Filet

Today I went to my school even though there was no class. I wanted to get at least a brownie or a cookie from their fund raiser for a person who needs a double lung transplant. I didn't spend much time there because I had an anterior motive to going. I wanted to stop by a local art and craft gallery and ask a few questions. I'm nutritiously bad about not approaching people but I didn't let myself get out of it. The place, as well as the women I talked too, had such a friendly atmosphere. I also got a bit lucky that a few seconds after I started talking to her another person came in to ask the same questions. Any nerves I still had shot out the window.

I got a lot of information, everything from how many artists there where, what the join cost was, monthly rates, how displays worked, and how commissions as well as classes worked.

Over all I really like how they have it set up. They do not charge you a percent for sales or taking commissions through the gallery. You pay for the space and that is it. You can choose between a half space or a full space. The art you offer has to be judged and can not be close to what is already there.

I'm actually kinda hoping I can go for it. Only problem is there is a joining cost of $100, a one time fee, and the fact it is a 6 month commitment so start up funds to pay for the space each month. You know just in case you have that awful experience of not selling enough. I don't feel like I will fail so hard that I lose a lot but I also don't like the idea of putting everything I have into one thing.

I don't know, I'm going to have to think about it. I'll start thinking about applying though. It won't hurt to get a portfolio together. That is probably the one thing that really won't be a problem, I have a back stock of everything on this blog to offer as merchandise.

Even more then I would love to make money off of what I have done, not to mention clear out the 4 bags under my second desk, I would love to teach. I think I could do fairly well with it. On Zantarni I've been collecting links to tutorials and types of crochet so others could learn. Basically I have the information at my fingertips. I've learned a lot from doing this. Beyond the basics I was also thinking of perhaps teaching classes on individual stitches like clusters or lattice work.

Filet Pumpkin

Today was my Aunts Halloween sleep over. I had to go around the "forest" and try and scare the kids. Last year went amazing.....this year not so much. Now that they knew who I was I couldn't just chase them. When I first got there, shortly before it got really dark, the kids where not in the woods. Two adults where walking around, the guy was pointing out where the decorations where to a girl, and I managed to jump out and scare the girl and kinda the guy. Safe to say that was my only real success that night. The kids kept surrounding me wanting to be my minions,ect. At some point most of them where doing that, I'm all......is there anyone even left to scare? Well I tried a few things. Have one of them come with me and tell them at some point to start screaming or have them in a circle and chanting. It worked....for all of 30 seconds. It was a big mess of them wanting me to direct them and me having no idea what to do. At the back of my mind I couldn't help but babble why me.

Worse part yet is one of my stunts made Baily cry. Her brother was one of the first people who came to "my side" and I had him faint by the coffin. Then I had the girl who started the whole "I'll be your slave" thing chant over him and had the rest of the kids come and try and get him back. I set it up so that the girl chanting would scream and run away when they did come and get him. Well an adult come soon after to show Baily, and probably another little kid or two, that he was alright.

Oh.....Did I mention they had strobe lights? Good thing I'm not epileptic or I would have died from all the flashes being put in my eyes. I was seeing spots.

At some point I told them to go find something my Aunt hid in the woods last year. Turns out she didn't hide them this year but it got them off my back for half an hour. Then I got my marshmallows which I was adamant about getting. Last year I had kids sitting on my lap so I only really got one. I also ate far to many grapes. Marshmallows and grapes this is what I choose to eat together. Geez.

Just this morning I was answering a question of what makes me nostalgic and what came to mind is those blue drinks with plastic twist off tops. You know Kool-Aid Bursts or Mondo that are normally found in the dollar stores? Ya those. They had them there and I thought it was awesome.

Then there where glowsticks. Hecks ya.

Candy Corn

I had a surprisingly good day. It was kinda weird to feel so refreshed with a raging headache. I will say though that the amount of headaches I have is starting to get alarming. They are not bad at all, more mildly annoying, but every now and again they become a problem. An hour asleep takes care of it but I can't just go to sleep at any given time as much as I may want to.

Despite all this I left for school even though I didn't have class. I wanted to drop off a few clothing items for a fund raiser the school was holding, it was the last day, and I figured I could get gas for the car and work on the ink drawings needed for my Literature class.

I grabbed my portfolio, which is huge, walked out to a bridge and drew. A few people stopped to see what I was doing, one guy wanted to know if I was alright. Why do people keep doing that? DX<

Best part of it was a man wants me to help him with presenting an idea for an addition to his shop. Getting offered a job, even a one off or a small one, is a huge uplift in confidence and hope. I will say I'm really wary about this. I've had a lot of people say they would like me to do something to have it fall through or not get contacted. Just talking about it makes me feel like the universe is going to rip it away.

The Universe is out to get you, no joke. -paranoid-

Orange Lolly Pop

The background may come as a surprise but I've been thinking that if I'm going to take the time to do so many Halloween projects that I could do with a change in background to reflect that. I picked candy because of my massive sweet tooth but also because I'm starting out the month by doing candy. I may change to fall leaves further into the month.

Along with the change in background I have been thinking I should try and talk more on this blog. That is the whole point of a blog right? To say something? I'm not the most talkative person in person. The only time I really get going is with my dad and that involves a lot of nothing. I don't think it is too appropriate or interesting to ramble on about what is going on with Doctor Who or if there is a Pokemon event happening. It gets old, but so does my not saying anything.

I also don't want to whine about my "nothing" changes in life. I tend to fall into that trap and it is getting worse as I indulge my short comings. I guess it is better then nothing in a way. Good or bad I can admit to getting a D on my math midterm and freaking out about it. Or how I feel Anatomy is such a hill that I can't seem to get started crossing it.

One thing I feel I do best with is replying. So if there is anything you out there would like to know more about or get my opinion on I would love to hear it. I have a few more maybe thoughts that I may try to do. Like post more of the things I find interesting or helpful videos. I also bought a new quotations book today that I'm dieing to find a use for. Maybe I could share a few or give thoughts on the things I hear.

Also I think this is the best way in the world to use those poker sticks that come in polyester fiberfill. You know those annoying things they add in to help you put the stuffing in but are kinda useless because they are stuck so far in the middle you can't find them till the bag is half way used up? Ya those things.

Lolly Pop

4 pages to memorize in a day. I hope I'm ready. XP

Bat

This thing looks like a teletubby. Bleck.

My Halloween theme will involve noh masks on the stuffed animals. Though I am into fileting so much I may do more projects involving that then making stuffed animals.